Not going to volleyball
…makes me feel slightly guilty about eating again…Even though all this stuff went really well the last few weeks, not losing any weight at all is so damn frustrating and triggers me very much to just stop. Let’s hope my ratio can keep me from this, it would only end in many binges/bulimia.
The person I reblogged this from deserves to be happy.
(Source: find-the-beauty-within, via dullikind)
how do you make tumblr friends… do you just start a conversation because that puts me at a disadvantage.
(via dullikind)
Jogging in the morning
…with some friends feels really great. Even though we had to wake up friggin’ early, the feeling after running is great, you feel as if you’ve accomplished something and the day hasn’t even begun yet for most others.
I don’t want my parents to worry
but I don’t want to stay at this weight/body either. Why can’t I decide what I want to do? It’s not like I won’t stop, I will, but not at the point where they want me to…
Parents found out everything…
…and it feels kind of good, even though I cried a whole lot.
Anyways, if I drop under 49 kilos, my mother will take my to a psychiatrist.
EDIT: now, three weeks after this it turns out that I can’t even go under 49, even if I’m eating less calories than I usually eat. And my weight won’t even go down, ugh, frustrating…
- classmate:basically anyone that has a blog is either a cutter, an anorexic or an attention whore
- classmate:do you have a blog?
- me:yes
